heyyy people!! before i start on today’s words, here’s an update on fundraising ::
– I’ve officially hit my goal of $5,000 before May is over
– I’ve made some pretty sweet relationships with donors whether it be by making paintings for them, hiding easter eggs, babysitting, or just by people reaching out to me. The Lord has been really kind in giving me these relationships.
– (on a personal note) I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL !!!!! it was a super fun & intentional night that our school put on for us seniors, to make us feel loved and celebrated in the midst of this pandemic.
now, onto some words!!
Sometimes when I feel the Lord moving in my life, i’ll open up the notes app on my phone and jot it down. A few weeks ago i wrote this
“just received a $100 donation from my aunt’s parents –
the day that i’m feeling confused and distraught, the Lord still proves Himself faithful. faithful when i’m scared, when i’m ashamed, when i try to hide, He is faithful. He’s there in the nights of fear & sweat, whispering “I’m still here, i’m not cancelled, i will never leave you nor forsake you. I am good. I am faithful. You know these things.” praise to my good father, my faithful shepherd, my selfless servant, my Lord”
On this particular night I was ending a week of what seemed like endless defeat. I was a few weeks into online learning (which sucks for seniors), then I saw that a few of my friends got to go to the beach (sounds petty now lol), and on top, I was battling the enemy for peace in my mind about fundraising. I kept feeling like I was coming up short. The enemy just kept throwing stones at me, reminding me that I had no place in the world and I should just give up on experiencing fullness and joy now.
Then I received a brown paper bag with some cash inside and a note on the top from my distant aunt. It’s not that I didn’t like her or know her, but the fact that this particular family member was donating to a trip that I don’t think i’ve ever mentioned to her was downright astonishing. It was definitely a God moment.
It was definitely the Lord showing his utmost faithfulness and protection over me and my mind. I think it was Him saying that even though it seems that all of these things are failing right inn front of me, He’s still working. He’s moving peoples hearts and minds into a Kingdom mindset, without me even knowing it.
So to anyone who feels like their not heard, seen, cared for, or fought for, think again. There is a big God who sees even the tiniest of our problems & fears. He doesn’t promise that it’ll be easy or that we won’t struggle, but He does promise His faithfulness. He promises to never leave us or let our prayers go into void. He promises not to cancel, even when everything else around us seems to be.
